Computerless

My mom’s friend recently built me a new computer but had to replace the motherboard since the company issued a recall for them. Our replacement motherboard, however, was incompatible with my computer and caused it to crash every 5 minutes. Now I’m in the process of finding a new motherboard, so I’ll be computerless until then.

You might think I would use this time wisely and study for my CSC or exercise, but I’ve been doing a whole lot of lying in my bed instead. It’s a lot less pathetic than it sounds because I finished a book and several of Joe Rogan’s podcasts while I was lying down. I’m not a deep philosophical thinker, but when I don’t have a computer to distract me I find that I spend quite a bit of time wondering about my life. Life in general actually. I feel like a chunk of my life has been spent doing things I’m “supposed” to do, and with what spare time I have left over I get to do my own thing (whatever that entails). I don’t think I have done enough of what I want to do, but the trouble with that is that I rarely know what I want to do. It’s like I was programmed to work but somewhere down the line I became self-aware and now I have to kill all humans find a real purpose in my life.

No, it’s not a quarter-life crisis. I’m starting to dislike that term because it’s too dramatic. Japan has a crisis. Libya has a crisis. We don’t know what to do with our lives, but with shelter, food, and some recreational drugs at our disposal, I’m sure we’ll arrive at an answer. It must be quite the luxury to consider that a crisis.